Falling In Love

Feelings unchanged at the sound of despair

She reaches out to touch my aching soul

And she clears me of doubt 

Can't say I love her 

Can't say I don't

Love seems a pretty strong word

But like doesn't come close to describing what I feel

Forever etched Into my heart she is

Tried desperately to fight the feeling

A futile battle I must admit

Like a magician she snaps away all of my efforts with only a single glance

Waiting for the phone to ring each passing day

Hoping the next call is hers

Her voice cleansing my spirit each time

Side by side we sit

No words spoken but at our departure walking away and feeling like it was the best conversation we'd ever had

Don't know what this is

Can't believe it

People travel far and wide to find love

Some people kill to claim theirs

But I found love chilling in my friend
What could be more beautiful than this.

By: Okundigie.O.James

Sorry

To those who check out my blog regularly , I am very very sorry for no posts due to work and exams and we thank you for ur understanding :) :) :)

GODS PERFECT CREATION

Stuck in a trance

Don’t know where I am

Words seem to elude me at this point

Seeing a face

Glowing in the distance

The face of beauty yet untold

Racing with my heart beating like a rolling drum

Reaching for the face that was the light

Finally crossing over to the distance

I had her in plain sight

She was beauty

She was magnificence

Her peace swarmed up around me like a shepherd’s cloak

Couldn’t bear to look her in the eye for lack of courage

She was an unchanging beauty

One my mind could not yet begin to comprehend
With innocence and purity she blossomed all day long

Even at night her beauty glowed like the moonlight

Unable to touch it

Unable to utter a word

I just stare and admire God’s perfection
By:Okundigie.O.James

SOMEONE I USED TO KNOW

I met love on my first date

And she slapped me in the face

I met her on my way home and she stole my keys

Met her at my doorstep and she stole my heart

A slave of sad love

Can’t comprehend it

Why they all turn sour

Why they all leave me in the dirt

Why they all take me for granted

Sitting alone with my guitar

Strumming the strings and wondering why

Why love could be so cruel

Why my heart had to pay the price for caring

Why I always had to be left behind

I’m staying with love but I’m not wanted by love

I’m searching for her everyday but she seems to drift away even further

I can see her face as clear as the raindrops

But she doesn’t recognize mine

Upon the ties formed

She still sees me as a stranger

Thought I could mould myself into all she desired

Into her knight in shining armour

Into her saviour from distress

Into her best friend

Into all she could possibly ask for

Her perfect man

More or less her perfect zombie

She keeps me at bay merely scratching the surface of her heart

My love for her dwindling away like the sunset

She was my angel

She was my ever bright shining star

She was my heart

The one who completed me

Now she’s just someone that I used to know

By: Okundigie.O.James

Soul Mate

My heart and my soul beat for one

One whom I treasure above everything else

One who looks out for me in time of trouble

One who always stands by my side

One who cares for me and makes me feel special

One who treats me like I’m the only one in the world

One who promises me that nothing could ever take my place at heart

One who would rather watch me sleep than join in

One who rejuvenates me when I feel weak and sick of life

I have no words to describe the love I have for this person

The one who is always on my mind

The only face I see when I wake up in the morning

And the only one I see when I go to bed at night

My crescent moon

My morning star

My soul mate.

By: Okundigie.O.James

THOUGHTS OF LOST LOVE

Is it possible to give up on love?

To give up on the one thing you cherish more than anything else in the world

To let it go and see if it returns back to you

To let anger and rage cloud your judgment

To let mistakes rule your life

To let shame steal away your joy

To let her slip from your fingers

To watch her fall out of your life

To see her beauty fade away right before your very eyes

Never to see her again

Never to hold her close

Never to see the glow light up in her eyes as the sunset strikes her face

Gone with the wind

Lost at sea

Never to return

To the hands of love

Is it

Is it truly possible?

By: Okundigie James

THIS IS REAL

My hearts fluttering away

Lost to the chambers of love

Can’t seem to find an exit door

Trapped in it

Thought I’d never be here

Chilling with love at my side

The invincible chains that bind me to her

I’m going gaga for this girl

She’s my atmosphere

She’s the very air I breathe now

I’m crazy for her and I need help not to screw this up.

By:Okundigie.O.James

A FRIEND

Shock of my life received

I saw tears in her eyes

She truly cared

She really did care

Punishing herself with a situation that concerns her not

Now I’m stuck here with my pen wondering what my life is truly worth

The one thing I never wanted to happen was caused by me

My depression causing me to falter

She seems to peer into the very essence of my being

My failures making me lose grasp of the things I hold dear to my heart

Never truly understood what the word friend truly meant

Tonight giving me a magnificent insight to the word

One ready to confront any situation on your account

The warmth and joy I felt at that very instance

It could never be replaced by anything else

The feeling of true love from a friend 

As the tears raced up to her eye and as she desperately fought to hold them back

Trying so hard to hide the emotions within

What a sight

Love from a friend second only to Gods love

A true friend
They truly are hard to come by 

Irreplaceable
Totally irreplaceable she is
A friend worth fighting for
Still dazzled and still amazed
I truly do have a friend

By: Okundigie.O.James

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

To my dearest friend,

Lack of courage to say this in person

Retreating to my paper and pen to tell my tale

Time and time over

I’ve seen beauty that blinds the soul

Beauty that deafens the heart

But you truly are a phenomenon

The crescent curve of your lips leaves me dazed

And the perfect drop of your hair like fine spun gold

With the radiance of your skin

Oh how you glow about like a human sun

The crystal sparkles that lay awake in your eyes like a fleet of stars at night

With their bright brown gaze

Warming up my spirit all the time

Getting lost in them each time I stare

Wondering how I could look you in the eye and not stutter in my speech

Little wonder why I’m always left speechless around you

Admiring your beauty each time we meet

With the way you laugh a truly precious site to behold

Your smiles constantly sending shivers down my spine

Your facial expressions when frustrated keep you cute as a bunny

And your lovely side eyes whenever I annoy you

No matter how many times I pick on you

You never leave me hanging

Never seen a person who’d prefer the company of books to anything else

All adding to your adorable yet annoying side

Barely know you but I feel I have a lifetimes understanding of you

A special friend you’ll always be to me

Keeping me in check at all times

So this is my gift to you

My unending friendship

My shoulder to lean on, cry on, drool on, anything on

My dry jokes to keep you smiling

My trash words to annoy you

My stomach to punch when you feel uneasy

And my mouth ready to tease and stroke with gladness in my heart

I could go and on then this would officially become an awkward birthday note

Already seems too deep

So I’ll just stop there

 Happy birthday…have fun JJJJJJJJJJJJJ

THE SECRET ADMIRER

I know you

But we’ve never met

I hear your voice at the wake of the morn everyday

But we’ve never spoken

I can feel your warm embrace at heart

But our hands have never touched

I can sense your presence all around

But you’re always in the distance

I see you staring at me

But our eyes have never clashed

All but wishful thinking I guess

The simplicity of her beauty that comes with a bang!!!

I cannot define what I see in her

I cannot explain it

But I feel it deeply

I don’t know what it is about her that steals my attention

But I know I’m going nuts for her

By: Okundigie.O.James

WHAT A TEAM

We've lost our spark

Our special moment

Staring at each other not having a single word to say

Always wondering what went wrong

What did I do?

What could I have done to cause this?

Where did I go wrong?

Thought we would always remain connected and efficient

Always growing and never being stunted

But a fairy-tale I guess it is now

And as a saying from the box office movie ‘oblivion’

“we are no longer an effective team”

REGRET OVER ADVENTURE

Sitting on a rusty old bench

The cool breeze brushing against my cheeks

An idle mind wandering into the darkness

Fair beauties all around

But she whom appeals to me stands here not

Far in the distant voyage I see her face

Too far for my grasp

Struggling to catch up

Those words pop up in my head again

What would you say?

What would you tell her that she hasn’t heard before?

My pace slowly decreasing

The weight of those words slowing me down

Eventuality sets in

She’s out of my league I said

Standing and watching as she fades out of my life forever

Never to be seen again

And losing what would have been a promising endeavor

By: Okundigie.O.James

MY TESTIMONY

Standing upon the demise of my enemies

Here to return all the glory to my Father

A smooth ride unto his chosen land

A sudden bump and a crash bang!!!

My heart leaving my body as we tumbled out of course

To my surprise

I was sitting still in that bus

Over and over again they screamed and yelled

Fighting a way through out of their belts

A quick fall of the high hilled cliffs

Splat!!!

Down we went splashing through the waters

Struggling out of the bus and swimming like I had the world to fear

Then it hit me like a stray bullet

I was alive and in the clear

I screamed out through the burning fire on water

No one seemed to hear me

No one responded

No one made a single sound

Bodies floating up out of the water

Surrounded by death I was

A cart full of people happy and laughing

Now a dump for death

A solo survivor of my worst memory yet

One I wish no one to see.

By: Okundigie.O.James

A GOOD OLD MEMORY

A sudden drift back in time

Sitting alone on a worn out wooden elevation I call a chair

Remembering it like it was just yesterday

Recalling my fresher s appearance

A silky purple stripped shirt and my baggy grey pants

And those shoes that looked like flippers

Out of the blues she walked up to me

With her red chiffon shirt and black pants and a thin gold chain to weigh her beauty

“Excuse me, is this seat taken”

Frozen I was as the then shy nature set in

No exchange of words not even a clash of eyes as she took her sit

A seemingly rude fellow I appeared to be upfront

She sought to start a conversation all through the bore of the lecture

Responses seemed to elude me

Forcing her into a confrontation rather than a conversation

Remembering vividly the very first question

“hey, you can talk right? because it seems I’m either boring you or disturbing you”

Engulfed in laughter I am each time remember it

Like two peas in a pod we became

Drawing closer than ever

Like a husband would cherish his wife

So also I cherished my dear friend

Probably that was wrong of me

Got too attached I guess

A knowing of ages we had of each other

The joy the laughter and the smiles

But as far as recency goes

All this is nothing but a good old memory.

by: Okundigie.O.James

HIDDEN BEAUTY

Stunned I stood

Looking on into her eyes

My eyes fixed on her the whole time

A strange beauty I had missed at the beginning

With her smooth radiant skin

And her lovely brown eyes

With her smile that sent me to paradise

Mesmerized I truly was

Flashbacks still racing through my mind

That sight of innocence

The sight of beauty so pure and true

A star amongst us she truly is

Amidst all thoughts

The obvious still remains unsaid

The beautiful live amongst us

And they’re just under our noses

by: Okundigie.O.James

THE PRECIOUS

Crystal sparkles I see in your eyes
Your love I seek in every face
Regretting not the day I crashed into you
A most remarkable day I must admit
With your skin as smooth as the skies
The curve of your lips like the crescent moon
Your beautiful eyes that peer into the souls of men
Your breath like the scent of a thousand roses
And your hair like finely spun gold
How could one resist such gifts bestowed?
A foolish man I would be to cast you aside
Knowing your mine seems to me like a dream I never want to wake up from
For upon the stormy tides of love
I see your face upon the shores.

By: Okundigie.O.James

FRIEND ZONED

Oh the blessed day of the arts

We both just seemed to flow beautifully

Hadn’t been so full of joy in a while

Getting lost in her eyes countless times

Thought she was the one at that very instant

Her attributes not matching what I had in mind

But yet that burning feeling inside

That feeling of approval

Was so sure

The heat of the moment being stirred up

Trying to get in closer

To see how much of the gap I needed to close

Just at the instant when I thought we were finally connected

She shot me with four cold words and a straight face to spice it up

I wish I could say them out loud here

But am not sure whose listening or reading

Like a C4 bomb it blew me away

And thus reassuring me

We could never be more than friends

By: Okundigie.O.James

MY JOY

Boundless love this is

Cant put meaning to it 

Cant explain it

How shocking it still is to me

The sudden warmth I feel inside at a single glimpse of your smile

Loving the joy you pour forth whenever you are happy

Never wanting to see you sad

Never wanting to see you cry

Always on standby I am to restore your joy

Calling you in the words of Shakespeare an earth threading star is the least my words could quantify your beauty

Beauty that blinds 

Beauty that pierces the hearts and souls of men

So unimaginably happy to say three words

"You are mine"

TURN THE HANDS OF TIME

It’s been so long

Could barely recognize her when she stepped in

Altering my atmosphere

And sending shivers down my spine

Thinking back and realizing with great hurt

I lost her

The one whom I treasured so dearly

Oh how I miss her smile which put me at bay with joy

Her sudden movements like a sword

I miss her so much

To me it feels like a terrible script that I’m acting out

Losing all those I actually open up to

A reason they say lies behind every action

Maybe I didn’t pay so much attention to her

Maybe I didn’t appreciate her when she was around me

Maybe we were so apart yet so close all the time

Maybe I wasn't there for her when she needed me

Maybe I seemed to take her for a ride

Maybe we weren't meant for each other I said to console myself

So many maybes and yet no surety

My heart torn into a thousand pieces at the sight of her with another

The love story which I played in my head daily

Instantly blotted out

Dinning with insomnia for my constant thoughts of when next I would finally meet her

How tight I would hold her to my chest

Not letting her go for the whole world

Letting her feel every second of my heart beat

Letting her know that my love was real and able to stand the test of time

I guess I was too late

Someone else was lurking around

Calculating his stealth strike

He held her access code in his hands

Guessing I never actually stood a chance from the onset

Joy still fills my heart though that she’s happy

Happier than I probably could have been able to make her feel

My only wish and hope

Is that he treasures her like the queen she is.

By: Okundigie.O.James

GIFT OF A LIFETIME

A story of love I always find myself in
The reality being I have nothing to offer her
I lack the spark of the charmer
So also do lack the charisma of a romantic
What could I truly give her in appreciation for her presence in my life
If I were to give you the moon it wouldnt count
If I were to buy you the whole country it just wouldn't cut it
Even if I were to acquire all pearls emeralds rubbies and jewelries of the world
It still wouldn't budge you
What ever could I possibly give to you
The answer slaps me in the face with great detail
I would love you like you were my only hope to live
I would cherish you like you were my last pearl on earth
I would cherish you even more than my life
The love that goes beyond the ages is what you truly deserve
And this is all you want
I love you.

By: Okundigie.O.James

LOOK UP TO THE SKIES

Still in motion
Like race car drivers on flying machines the clouds are
How perfect a view it is from here
Layer upon layer like a stacked up deck of cards
A chess board with an even playing field mapped out
Only that the pawns seem to fade out through life
I look out the window and up into the skies
I wonder why and i wonder how
I wonder where truly my destiny lies
The brown weeds of indecision like a thick fog blocking my vision
I hopped up for a solo mission through life
But the seeming imperfection in me to face strife
I hold unto the best memories of my time
Only to look unto a black and white paper filed with my rhymes
Pouring out unknown tears all at the feet of my fear
A tale that seems so rare
And i look onto the skies once more
Like an avalanche in a maze of confusion
And i saw clearly boldly written blocks of white up there in the skies
"Never lose hope in this life we live in, for the grace to strive on comes from above and not beneath"
I looked ahead and my path seemed so clear
My doubts confusions fears and restraints all became but a forgotten clause
And i smiled once more up to the skies and it read "In faith he holds our ties"

CRAZY LOVE

Heart breaks the order of the day

He loved her with all his heart

Yet she treated him like trash

Unforgivable he always said to himself

Every time she cried out to him consciousness of his long old tales elude him

He thought he’d found love

He thought he saw himself through her eyes

He thought he saw god through her

How wrong he was

She made him sad

Leaving him for all the other blokes around

Like a fool he always waited

A standby man he always was to her

Even when the rain came and everyone sought shelter

He alone stood still waiting for her return

In time,

Wisdom begins to dawn on him

He begins to see

There lies a thin line between love and infatuation

And like a wise man once said

“out of the abundance of our love for our Father, we share it out to others”

A replaceable commodity she thus became

He found another who cherished and valued him above all the treasures on earth

One that held him to high esteem

She was his friend

His sister

And his confidant all in one

Oh how beautiful it was

The later realizing all her new counterparts were all the same

Gaining instant knowledge of what she had lost

Ran back to his doorsteps begging him to take her back

Alas it was too late

The one who realized how special he was had already taken her place

And was holding on tight

Never ever take anyone for granted

You never can tell what the future holds

By: Okundigie,O.James

BITTERSWEET

Oh I’m feeling sober
Cause she’s gone forever
Tried to tell her with words
But she’s gone forever
Tried to show her with deeds
Now she gone forever
Oh what didn't I do?
Yet she gone forever
They say when you find love
Nothing else matters
Oh how untrue
I stood right in front of love and it slapped me away
Oh why is fate so cruel?
Gliding upon my sorrows
When I got bumped out of a trance
Alas beauty yet unseen stood right in front of me
An earth threading star she was
With her soothing words easing my pain
And she said
“Hi, let’s be friends”
The strange glow on her face
Like the moon at midnight
Oh how much I leaped with joy in my heart
A second chance at love this is
Mother Nature truly is fair

IN HIS HOUSE

THE PRESENCE OF GOD
TRULY A BEAUTIFUL ENCOUNTER
ALL TROUBLES AND WORRIED FALL NUMB AT HIS FEET
A COMFORTER
A FATHER
A FRIEND
OUR SAVIOR
WHAT A SUPERNATURAL BEING
NEVER WANT TO BE AWAY FROM HIS SIDE
HE TAKES AWAY ALL THE SHAME
BITTERNESS HAS NO PLACE IN HIS AWAKE
IN HIS PRESENCE THERE IS FULLNESS OF JOY
LORD GOD
WE SAY THANK YOU DADDY

HIDDEN TREASURE

Hearts scattered all over
Cant seem to think straight
A third wheel it seems
Loves like a bullet that hits you without you even knowing
Beauty like a bullet shot me in the heart
Though out of my league she was
I couldn't help but stare on
They say it's easy to resist
Its easy to contain
I fell postrate at her majestic power
Out of this world she was
Like a stalker i became
Trying to get closer to that single one
The one that makes me feel whole
That completes me
My better half you might add.

By: Okundigie.O.James  

OUR LORD GOD

I look up to the skies from whence does my help come
A notable scripture this is
Our father
The saviour of the world
Conqueror of our enemies
Our sovereign victor
Our help in times of need
Our merciful creator
It is from him we get the help we seek
All we can say is we love you and we cherish you lord God.

By: Okundigie.O.James

WHAT IF

What if your world was turning upside down
And  your friends seemed so out of reach
And the cold steel walls seemed to trap you within
What would you say when the depth of your despair seems to hold you in contempt
When all hope seems to be lost
When you finally stand on the brink of losing your self to the demons within
What if you are given a choice to live
To cling on to life
To cling on to mercy and grace
To hold on to hope
To hold on to the word that keeps us going
To abide with the ones who love us
To graciously stroll majestically over all your oppressors
To come out triumphant ,great and above all
Just imagine what if.

By: Okundigie Osarode 

WHAT A FEELING

A feeling of betrayal
A feeling of hate
Cant seem to find the ones to call friends
All seems lost to you
Tried and tried for so long
All sems to be to a dead end
Rejection your daily meal
Your food for thought always
Like the cold still air you are in their midst
Seeking attention all the time like a toddler
Yet they eeem to push farther and farther away
Alone in the darknesss your left
A sad tale you always have to tell
A voice calls out from behind
Deep and frightening
Loud amd clear i cab hear its ferrocity and aggresison
      "never pity yourself
        never try to please others dont ever change who you are just to fit into anothers agenda
Be different because thats who you are
Be unique and all you truly need.will find you.
A poet of the new age i call yourself
Bringing a message of peace and harmony to the world

By: Okundigie.O.James 

Apologies

My sincerest apologies to the viewers. Been slacking alot on my part been through alot for the past two weeks , all is well so next week is gonna be nore of an i.teractive session here so get ready.

Apologies

My sincerest apologies to the viewers. Been slacking alot on my part been through alot for the past two weeks , all is well so next week is gonna be nore of an i.teractive session here so get ready.

Dear Lizzie

Oh Lizzie!!!
The sweet fragrance from your presence
The soothing sound of your voice
Stunner i was at our first meeting
Truely beauty to behold you were
Gladness fills my heart because i know you
A tale of love i play in my mind always
My dearest christie
Loving you would be a dream come true
Oh i wish you do not deny me this
The best bet you would have riding on me
Lizzie lizzie lizzie!!!

By: Okundigie.O.James 

Give Thanks

They say grattitude is a thing of the heart
Body and mind all in connection with each other
Aiming at a specific result
A result released without hinderance
No wavering decisions
A result delivered from the abundance of the heart
A result we call "thank you"

By: Okundigie.O.James

A Shame

Rough and harsh
The words go forth
A sight which stings the mind and ears
A defiling character which stings the ears
How arrogant and boldly she stared him in the face
A demand placed
One he ignored
The fool she became
In the aftermath of it all
The little pride bestowed by class
Lost by his silence towards her
Sitting on her chair
She feels so ashamed
Unaware of the impression she emits
First impression they say matters alot
A sure zero she scored on that

By: Okundigie.O.James

MIND AT WORK

She stares at me from a distance
A cold silence sweeps the air
Her intense gaze beckoning on me
Faces thrown away at the clash of eyes
Shy she seems towards me
A girl setting standards for herself still
So hard to ignore her presence
Pretty she is
Character the spit of the earth
Friendly they say she is
Yet to discover it I search
All I see I detest
Once seen as a star in the darkness above
Maybe wrong I thought

Her eyes I could stare into all day
The perfect curve of her lips
Unable to resist I must confess
She draws me out of my shell
She brings me back to the world
Giving up on me she does not
A true friend she’s proven to be
Long hours spent with each other
Age though rips us apart
Time passes by and the bond weakens
Hi and bye friends we become
Thought I knew her deeply
A different girl she was
Or so I thought

Love at first sight I said
Not a single word to describe her
An angel sent to me I claimed she was
My own gem in the midst of stones
Treasuring her and keeping her in heart
Tasted not by the men of the world
A rose in a weed field she stands out
Thought we would share a dream of love
A tale I played so long in my heart
Faded memories of the gem bloom the mind
Waiting upon her for ages
Waiting to pour out my heart to her
In her trashcan I find myself
Different she was from the first and second
Or so I thought

The lack of words for the fourth frighten me
Her countenance a different one from the others
Enveloped with love and hidden treasures she was
Let it rain I cried out to the heavens
My heart had found her at last
Yet again I spoke too soon
Taken by another she was
A hanging fruit at the top of the tree waiting to be plucked she seemed
Or so I thought.
           
Composed By: Okundigie.O.James

LOST IN TRANSIT

Closure!!! Closure!!! Closure!!!
Those words keep echoing in my head
Cant put a meaning to the word
Feeling like the boss
Spinning in that chair
But closure keeps ringing
Could it mean a flaw on my part
Oh Boy! I can see so many things
The girls taunting
Pals lauging
Wise ones giving their speech sermons
The trucks hunking so loud outside
Maybe I'm already in closure

By : Okundigie.O.James

NIGHT OF LOVE

The groove of the night
The laugter that fills the air
Smiles drawn on the faces of each person
What a joyful atmosphere this is
Wish i could bathe in this each passing day
So warm
So beautiful
So precioysly divine
Thank you oh God for the beauty of tonight.

By Okundigie.O.James

He Is Great Indeed

Battling with the demon within
Trying to seize control
A futile battle this one is
Giving up the fight every single time
Found the strength to battle
him
But my dedication to the source is not steadfast
My commitment is not strong enough
My will power is failing me once more
Lord take charge
For if no one can do it
You can.

By Okundigie.O.James

LOVE

Love from the heart
Love from the soul
Love that exceeds comprehension
Love that consoles
A strange word "love"
Hard to describe
Hard to explain
Want to emphasize the name
But I have to make it plain
A burning desire from the heart it is
An ache erupting from within
Gentle and meek it pours out forth
With purity and innocence all so clean
Some call it a load of pain
Certainly because of a thought of gain
Losing sight of the true love
One which exceeds favours as it were
A manifestation of the heart it is
A selfless action from within
An expression with no constant trigger
In all it seeks to grow bigger
Encompassing the heart
En-snaring the mind
Giving a new meaning
To life as it were
         Composed by: Okundigie.O.James

MY SPECIAL ONE

By my side she was today
A brief moment she spent
But a seeming eternity it felt like
enjoying her company more than even the air i breathe
Oh how i wish our love could blossom and bloom
Even unto the very ends of the earth

THANK HIM ALWAYS

A family of three

Father included

Mother hustling daily

Children included

Begging on the streets of Hebron

Only but in search of their daily bread

Compassion and tears bleed out of my heart

I come across them each passing day

A sudden push plunges me towards them

A sizable amount they receive from my pay

The outburst of joy coming from the little children

Throwing me into a state of weeping

Thanking God each passing day for the life He has given me

You should do the same

Because they could have been you and I

By: Okundigie.O.James